no regrets, just love

loving what you do +  loving the people you're working with +  loving the people you're working for = happiness

from now on, i will do everything so that i won't have any regrets. i've been afraid all my life. i think it's about time i give myself a chance. i'm going to smile at every opportunity and hold on tight to those that matter. i will love until it hurts and will hurt until another love. i will quit trying to figure people out. maybe the reason why you can't get them out of your head is that they are meant to stay there. i don't want to wallow in self-pity anymore. i want to bathe in self-love. i know changing is hard but it's harder if i won't even try. i know i've made and broken promises more that you can count with your two hands, but i want to make promises again. maybe, promising also needs practice. the good thing is i have all the time to practice!

**forgiveness is something that is given without any condition, without anything in return (that's why it's for-give).

Should i Stay, Gabrielle

ever experience hearing a certain song and realizing that all of the lyrics are precisely what's in your heart? That has happened to me lots of times. most recently it's should i stay by gabrielle. i think i don't need to elaborate any further. the lyrics say it all. hahaha.

"Should I Stay?"

Here I am, waiting for a sign, I never seem to know
If you want me in your life, where do I stand
I just don't know
I never feel I know you
'Cause you blow hot and you blow cold, it seems I've grown attached
Though we're not the perfect match
I just can't explain

Should I stay
Should I go
Could I ever really stand to let you go
Can you now find the right words to say
That maybe I'm getting in your way

I feel your warmth, got me wanting more, you've left the door half open
I'm in two minds to explore, but then again
Am I being honest, being truthful to myself, can I see my life without you
Could I be with someone else
It seems I've grown attached, though we're not the perfect match
I just can't explain

Should I stay
Should I go
Could I ever really stand to let you go
Can you now find the right words to say
That maybe I'm getting in your way

Should I stay
Should I go
Could I ever really stand to let you go
Can you now find the right words to say
That maybe I'm getting in your way

It seems I've grown attached
Though we're not the perfect match

Should I stay
Should I go
Could I ever really stand to let you go
Can you now find the right words to say
That maybe I'm getting in your way

ways to say i miss you without saying i miss you

• ang tagal na nating hindi nagkikita o nag-uusap
• kamusta na yung alaga niyo?
• magsend ng blank message
• iPM siya ng "hoy!" tapos pag tinanong kung bakit, sagutin mo ng "wala lang"
• i didn't see you today
• may nakasalubong ako kanina, akala ko talaga ikaw yun. muntik ko ng binatukan!

sorry...

maybe we're not healthy for each other anymore.
i was afraid this time would come. so afraid i denied the possibility all this time.
but denial doesn't change the truth.i won't change the fact. it won't lessen the pain either.all it does is prolong the agony. prolong the hurt.

we can never be ready to get hurt. we can only rehearse the scenarios. too bad, scenarios don't always correspond to reality.

even in my imagination, it hurts and it hurts like hell. how much more painful is it in reality?

but if i continue to be stuck here with my imaginations, i won't be able to move on. i won't be able to do anything to move on. and that sucks.

sooner or later, whether i like it or not, reality will have to sink in. and i just have to accept it and the pain that comes with it.