Love And Hate Relationship

It was one of those mornings when it takes a lot of self control not to wring someone's neck. I wanted to fill this post with morning rants but I have a better plan.

Remember the saying "The world gives you what you give to the world?" I thought that if I write all about the things that happened this morning that I hate, the world will echo this hate to me. Well, I don't know about you but I don't want more hate in this world. I want love. I want more love.

So, instead of writing:
-I hate (negative thing no. 1)
I will write:
- I love (opposite of negative thing no.1)

Sounds easy right?

Here's my list:
-I love strangers who think of others when riding a jeepney. I love the way they sit properly so that you can be comfortable too.
-I love jeepney drivers who leave the terminal to let other drivers have their share of passengers.
-I love men who use their hands to help old ladies get on the jeepney and not pretend to accidentally touch ladies next to them.
-I love proper and orderly jeepney terminals.
-I love smokers who do not smoke while walking so the person walking behind him will not have smoke all over the face.
-I love a sincere "Good morning."
-I love arriving earlier than expected.

Whew! That felt a lot better. From now on, instead of ranting I will continue with this love and hate relationship.

Happy Friday!

Tea Bag. Tea Back?

A woman is like a teabag; you never know how strong she is until she's in hot water

-Eleanor Roosevelt

Am I in hot water?

Is this my hot water?

I'm so tired.

I feel so tired.

I feel so tired of feeling inadequate

I feel so tired of being unappreciated

I feel so tired of being backstabbed

I feel so tired of those pitiful looks

I feel so tired of deadlines

I feel so tired of feeling so tired.

Is this my hot water?

What am I doing?

Am I giving up?

Am I giving in?

Am I not strong enough?

Well, even teabags have their limit.

Once you've exhausted its essence, no matter how hot the water you put in, it will taste like nothing.

Am I at my limit?

Is this still worth pushing my limit?

Is this still worth it?

Are you still worth it?

I want to tell the person who wrote this this:

If every person who ever got depressed, failed, stressed, pressured and cried gave up, there wouldn't be any Thomas Edison, Michael Jordan or even Steve Jobs.

If all diamonds cracked at the pressure of being carved, there wouldn't be any pretty engagement rings to offer during proposals.

If all mommy dogs shunned the pain of giving birth, there wouldn't be any cute puppies to cuddle.

If all the people who got their hearts broken never loved again, the world would be in a grand state of chaos.

We all have our own pains given according to how much we can take, plus a little bit more so that we can improve.

Pain is good. Pain justifies that you are still alive. Pain justifies that you have the opportunity to feel joy and love.

So, to you, stop all these negativities. Half of it is your own doing. Make things happen. Make good things happen. Never lose sight of your priorities. Enjoy the pain. Joy will come soon after. Aja Myka!

One Way Do Not Enter

I dreamt of you again...




We were walking close to each other

close enough to hold hands but still far to even try

We were walking uphill towards our friends seated on a table



facing us, they were chattering

and i couldn't help but blush when they said

"bagay talaga sila ano?"



and as a mischievious smile crossed our friend's face, my dream swirled into nothingness



The funny thing about this dream is that i didn't see your face but somehow, i knew it was you.

or i was hoping it was you or i was making myself believe it was you



damn



lagi kitang naiisip

lagi kitang napapanaginipan

lagi akong naghihintay ng text mo

lagi kong iniisip kung anong gagawin mo kung ikaw ang nasa lugar ko

lagi kong iniimagine an makikita kita randomly

lagi, lagi, lagi na lang ikaw



at ang nakakainis sa lahat ng ito...



hindi mo naman ako iniisip

hindi mo naman ako napapanaginipan

hindi ka naman naghihintay ng text ko

hindi mo naman iniisip kung anong gagawin ko kung akoa ng nasa lugar mo

hindi mo naman iniimagine na makikita mo ako randomly

hindi, ni minsan, hindi naman naging ako



sabi ko dati, ok lang kahit hindi mo ako mahal basta ikaw mahal ko.

pero nakakapagod din pala ang lagi na lang ako ang nagbibigay, lagi na lang ako ang nagmamahal

gusto ko rin namang maging selfish minsan and demand the love i deserve



at sa pag-eemo kong ito, may background music "Adele: Melt My Heart to Stone"



And I hear your words that I made up

You say my name like there could be an us

I best tidy up my head I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love



I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

Ilang beses ko kaya dapat ulitin ito sa sarili ko para matauhan ako?



I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love

I'm the only one in love



Well, at least, I'm in love. That must mean I'm capable of loving. And the ability to love guarrantees us that we are humans

That must mean, I'm a human! And if I could love this much, maybe, someday, I'll be loved as much.



At kung sino ka man out there somewhere na itinadhana ni Lord para sa akin, if you're reading this, don't worry.

I promise to keep my heart whole for you <3



(soooobrang cheeeeesy na ng dapat emo post!)



TATA

things to do when you're bored to the max like hell

sobrang bored ako today. as in sinearch ko na ang "Things to do when you are bored" sa Google. They have an interesting list actually. ;) tried some. but don't make me tell. it's hilarious. hihi. so i decided to make my own list, for the sake of those like me, bored to the brink of death.

1. Go to peyups.com. anyway, I went to peyups.com for some entertainment. and i found these: haha

nung minahal kita para akong natraffic sa EDSA, i can't move on

ang bilis ng panahon noh? dati ang dami kong gusto, ngayon, ikaw na lang

super laughtrip. mukha akong tanga tumatawa mag-isa. you can choose from a wide array of forums, from boy to boy to girl to girl to RH bill. educating. challenging. entertaining!

2. send someone flowers. just because your day is a not-so-great one, it doesn't mean that you infect others too. i found this really cool site.that sends flowers via email. and a great perk is that it's free! you get to arrange the flowers. choose your vase. choose your card. very sweet.very modern. very unique

3. Google your name. Yes, I know it sounds like a very egotistic thing to do but it's fun. you'll be surprised at what others see when they Google you. My search turned up these results.

syempre puro StatSoc ang lumabas. haha. Narealize ko, ang dali ko pala istalk. haha.

3. Google your crush's name. haha. at syempre hindi ko pwedeng ipaste dito ang print screen ng search na yun. haha. Well, marami ka ring malalaman tungkol sa crush mo through this. For one, malalaman mo kung may facebook ba siya, multiply, formspring, tweeter, and whatsoever. haha. And, one thing leads to another. before you know it, malalaman mo na kung naniniwala ba siya sa destiny o hindi. Kung kumakain ba siya ng bagoong o hindi. Promise. Malalaman mo. haha. Google is very powerful. haha

4. Google your crush's friend's name. Remember what I said about one thing leads to another? Well, I got this idea after coming across a blog where my crush's name was mentioned. In fairness, very interesting ang friend niya na ito. haha. from what he wrote (i was able to read half of his blog) i can deduce that he's fun to be with, very dedicated to his studies and a hopeless romantic. haha. This blog entry was actually inspired by him. so credits to him. haha. I hope to meet him one day =D

5.Write a blog entry about the things you can do when you're bored. haha. This is last but not the least. Well, you got through your boring day so why not share it with others?

Fun right? Before I know it, time is up and I still am not finished writing this! Who said I was bored? haha

TATA

tomorrow is another day

ang daming nakaklungkot na pangyayari nitong mga nakaraang linggo. pero hindi ko naman pwedeng itigil ang buhay ko dahil lang nalulungkot ako. naisip ko mas malulungkot ako kung iisipin ko ang mga bagay na nagpapalungkot sakin.kaya naman ngayon, manganagako ako sa sarili ko. hanggang ngayong gabi na lang ako magiging malungkot at maawa sa sarili ko. hanggang ngayong gabi na lang ang mga luhang ito.bukas.....

• aayusin ko na ang pamana ko kay mau
• i will list down ways to improve myself in all aspects
• babasahin ko ulit yung he's just not that into you
• i will smile more
• i will write more about my feelings. mas madaling mag let go pag naisulat mo na.
• hahanapin ko na ang "the one"
• aayusin ko na ang planner ko
• magiging ok na ako
• hindi ko na yun gagawin ulit at pag hindi ko ginawa i will reward myself with ice cream

kaya mo yan myka! pwede ba namang hindi? AJA! AJA!

simple dreams

someday, someone's fingers will fill the gaps between mine.... forever

Do I Make You Proud?

endless congratulations...
a long list of well-wishers...

but my heart yearns for the congratulations of that one person who served as my motivation all these years. ever since i started studying, i've worked so hard for the day that she will tell me "i'm proud of you anak." in the end, all success amount to nothing if i knew i didn't make her proud. it's amazing how mere words of a single person can make or break you. i remember crying that night because i did my best and people think i am the best but she still didn't seem satisfied. back then, the awards didn't seem to matter and the idea of graduation didn't excite me at all. all i could think of was "it wasn't enough to make her proud."

now, eight years after, i still have those worries in my heart. i am afraid to ask because i fear the answer. i fear that everything i have done is still not enough. i fear that i no longer have any chance to meet the expectations you set for me. i fear hearing you comparing me with others better than me. i fear hearing you're still not satisfied with who i am and with what i have achieved if there is any.

but not knowing torments me. so here i am, with all i am and all the hardwork and sleepless nights, standing in front you, asking "do i make you proud?"

you have no right to be lazy because...

• a lot of people believes in you, you have no right to let them down
• although, the outcome is sure as the sun rising each day, there are things called miracles if you believe
• you used to have such passion and you succeed when you ignite it.
• you're the one who said that you want to live with no regrets so try and try.
• you only have 10 days to finish everything
• you need to do it so do it now!
• in this aspect of life, there are no second chances.
• you will not be doing this just to prove yourself, you will be doing this because this is what you want

moving on

I made a deal with God

Just like what I did a year and a month ago

If you arrive then you will know and will know it all

But if you don't, you will never ever

The deal was 5 minutes after I finish writing my words

I waited. Waited until the time was up.

And even way beyond it.

Everytime the door creaks open, I turn

Wishing every stranger to be you

It was impossible for you to come

But the impossible is impossible if God wills it

So out of faith and love

I clutched that tissue paper drenched in purple

Now my heart and my feelings as fragile as it

I was ready to wait forever

But waiting has to end

God said the time is up

my words written in a tissue paper

i was prepared to tell you but you never came

and as this tissue paper now dissolves in the water

so is my love. so are my feelings

i am now prepared to let you go

because now i know and now for sure

we were never destined for a "forever after"

As I leave, I left that tissue paper

And along with it, my love for you

Although smeared by the choices I made

I tell you it is real. It was real

And yes, it is sad moving on from something that was real

Yes, it is sad but I am not hurting

I am no longer hurting

In fact, I am moving

Moving on.

Magical Moment < 3

Alam kong cheesy pero kailangan mo na talagang malaman. Aalis na ako kaya huling pagkakataon ko na para sabihin sayo ang lahat ng nararamdaman ko. Mahal kita noon pa pero maniniwala ka ba kung sasabihin kong mas mahal kita ngayon? Hindi ko alam kung paano ko sasabihin. Magmumukha naman akong tanga nun kaya pinaramdam ko na lang. Sana naman  naramdaman mo diba? I love you so much I cannot even speak of its length or breadth or depth. I never thought I could love someone like this but then again I thought wrong. Dahil sayo, lagi na akong may katext at hindi ko na kailangan magforward ng quotes para masulit ang unli ko. Dahil sayo nagkaroon ako ng tapang. Dahil sayo mas naintindihan ko ang sarili ko. Dahil sayo naging mas mabuti akong tao. Dahil sayo, wala na akong pakialam sa sasabihin nila. Basta masaya ka. Basta kasama kita. 

Pero hindi rin naging madali ang ipakita sayo na mahal kita. Maraming beses na rin akong umiyak dahil sayo. Maraming beses na naiinis ako kasi hindi ko maiwasang hindi ka isipin kahit marami akong ginagawa sa acads. Maraming beses na naiiyak na lang ako sa sobrang pagod. Maraming beses na nahihilo na ako sa sobrang puyat. Maraming beses na rin na ginusto ko ng isuko ang lahat ng ito. Pero sa tuwing nakikita kitang nakangiti, nakatawa at masaya, nalulusaw lahat ng paghihirap. Nawawala lahat ng lungkot. Biglang ok na ako ulit.

Sabi ng mga magulang ko, nakasama ka raw sa akin. Nalulungkot ako. Nalulungkot ako kasi hindi nila makita kung gaano ako naging isang mabuting tao dahil sayo, kung gaano ako naging matatag dahil sayo. My best has always been because of you.

Sana sa pag-alis ko maging ok ka pa rin. Sana malampasan mo ang mga sarili mong expectations. Magkakalayo na tayo pero di naman ako mawawala. Pangako yan. Tawag ka lang pag kailangan mo ko. Alam mo namang hindi kita matitiis.

Sa panghuli, gusto kong magpasalamat sayo.  Salamat sa pagkakataong magkaroon tayo ng “babies” at “mga bunso.” Sana alam nila kung gaano ko sila kamahal.

Salamat sa pagkakataong maging "Best Member" si Demae. Salamat sa pagkakataong makita si Canter na kinikilig. Salamat sa pagkakataong magpuyat kasama ni Gelli. Salamat sa pagkakataong masabihan ni Kat ng "I love you Myka Dear." Salamat sa pagkakataong makita ang bitchy side ni Q. Salamat sa pagkakataong mapaiyak si Polina. Salamat sa pagkakataong masermunan at sermunan si Hebs. Salamat sa pagkakataong makitang magkalovelife si Macar. Salamat sa pagkakataong makita si Aiz na kumain ng nakakamay. Salamat sa pagkakataong maging kampante na si Mau ang papalit sa akin. Salamat sa pagkakataong makita si Kris na laging kausap ni Chief habang kinikilig. Salamat sa pagkakataong makita si Kuya Marvin na hanggang tenga ang ngiti sa sobrang kilig. Sana alam nila na kung papipiliin ulit ako, sila pa rin ang mga members na kukunin ko.

Salamat sa pagkakataong maging Personnel Chair mo. Salamat sa pagkakataong makilala sina Perv Goddess at Voyeuristic Princess. Salamat sa pagkakataong awayin  si RM at Jimmy. Salamat sa pagkakataong madiscover ang lovelives ni Nino. Salamat sa pagkakataong abusuhin ang sipag ni Thea at Kim. Salamat sa pagkakataong maasar ni Jong at asarin si Roni.  Salamat sa pagkakataong makatrabaho at maging mga tunay na kaibigan ang pinakajeje na BOD. Diba, akala nilang lahat hindi natin kakayanin. Pero akala lang nila yun.

Salamat sa pagkakataong maging tunay na kaibigan ang 2 pinakasexy na presidente mo. Sana alam nila kung gaano ko sila namimiss.

Salamat sa pagkakataong makilala at mahalin siya. Sana makahanap siya ng taong mamahalin niya at mamahalin siya ng higit pa.

Salamat sa lahat ng bagay na naituro mo sa akin. Salamat sa pagtitiwala. Salamat sa pagmamahal.  Salamat sa mabubuting kaibigan na natagpuan ko dahil sayo. Salamat. Salamat. Salamat sayo, StatSoc.

losing grip

i'm losing grip again. ang dami kong kailangan gawin pero wala akong ginagawa.

"you will still be here tomorrow but you're dreams may not"

ok. i'm saying that to convince myself. and i'll say it over and over again since i'm pretty much hard-headed.
i must stop thinking about you. MUST. i've done too much thinking this past few days and less of the acting. i must go back to my old busy self. so i'm going to let this all out tonight.

i saw you today. but i dare not get near you in case a friend has had too much ice cream and decided to spill my secret. i feel sad knowing that i will be leaving this place in a few months time and the already limited time i have with you will be drained to its limit. i will miss you. i will miss you as a friend. you've been one of the best i've ever had and i blame myself for complicating that friendship. but there is nothing i can do at this point. so please just promise me you will take care of yourself. Promise me you will conquer all this. Promise me you will not surrender. Please. and when the time comes that God gives us a second chance, i hope we can be at our best selves. not regretting the past because it definitely made us stronger. not regretting the past because it is definitely one of the memories i will treasure forever. not regretting the past without it there will be no present and precisely no future.

let me be inspired by you.

ok.lez go na.

All i want for Christmas is....

ok eto na. since masaya, gagawa ako ng christmas wish list ko:

1. reunion with highschool friends :)
2. lovelife (charing!)
3. Book on the fail safe ways to avoid or remedy a literally bad hair day
4. funky laptop sleeve
5. 40 new members of StatSoc next sem hahaha
6. unlimited call and text for a month
7. flash drive or external HDD
8. love letters from the people i love the most
9. taong pwedeng maging planner ng buhay ko
10. new phone hihihi
11. all day bonding with my sexy friends
12. a nice notebook that i can convert into my thoughts book :)
13. ballpen na hindi nawawala
14. new body clock haha yung hindi sira
15. watch
16. a song made for me :")
17. friends ko as screenmates. haha
18. matuto maggitara ulit
19. latin words beneath my name on my diploma
20. book on the fail safe ways on how to be a kinder, more cheerful and loving person. haha. i know i need it haha
21. pictures of me and my friends in awesome pretty picture frames
22. more blog visitors! yihee
23. a new and better boarding house
24. a world more honest
25. stressball hahaha

5 months to go...

5 months to go, graduation ko na.
ang dami ng nagtatanong kung saan ko nga ba balak magtrabaho. sa totoo lang, hindi ko alam. ayoko pang isipin. gusto ko munang sulitin ang huling mga buwan ng pagiging estudyante, ng pagiging personnel chair :) i have all the time to think about the future but i have only now to think about the present. time flies so fast so i plan to fly with it. ayokong may pagsisihan kaya, pagbubutihin ko. :)

5 months to go, graduation ko na
5 months to go, hindi ko na kailangan magsuot ng student id
5 months to go, wala na akong student discount
5 months to go, lalaya na ako sa isang pangakong binitiwan ko nung grade 1 pa lang ako

how does it feel to be free? how does it feel to hold back nothing? how does it feel to let my feelings flow?
we'll know in 5 months :)

and if...

and if loving you is all that means to me and being happy is all i'd hope you'd be, then loving you must mean i really have to set you free

ang pinakanakakalungkot sa lahat ay yung nagiging sagabal ka sa mga pangarap ng taong mahal mo. yan ang kinakatakot ko ngayon. kaya naman, go lang. kaya mo yan! siguro cheerleader mo na lang muna ako. mahirap pero kakayanin ko kasi alam ko namang kaya mo. wag na wag kang mawawalan ng tiwala sa sarili mo kasi ang laki ng tiwala ko sayo. at habang kinakaya mo yan, gagawin ko naman ang lahat ng kaya ko para magtagumpay rin. success is sweet but it is sweeter when we taste it together. kaya natin to!

hello 2nd sem!

i cant sleep.

i'm afraid.

but i know fear is only in my head. should i get rid of my head? (that's a joke there.and it's not funny)

i have to adjust my body clock.

i have an 8:30 class. no to late night nothings (like this) anymore.

well, what am i thinking now?

i just read my whole blog again and it's weird reading it from latest to oldest.
but, i'm glad. i remember precisely how i felt while writing those and it makes me laugh.
yes, someday, there will come a point in your life when you will laugh about the things that once made you cry.

i am honestly satisfied with my life now. yes, single and happy and in love. with a very rich and colorful past to look back to, a very hopefully bright future ahead of me and a present full of surprises. yes, that is my life.

in terms of the heart matter, there are two people who colored (and are still coloring?) my life. the first one is the one i've always look up to. i wonder how he is now. part of my "success" in the academic field is because of him. For 2 years in a row, i motivated myself by thinking "he's doing great! you have to do so too.", "you don't want to face him a failure!", "he was able to do it, so why can't i?" then afterwards, it all boiled down to my innate desire to excel (although life will teach you in a hard way that you can't always do that). i am happy for him. i would love to see him fall in love with a deserving girl. i would love to shake his hand thinking "congrats, first love" because, yes, he is my first love. and it is true that first love never dies.

the other one is the person God pointed to when i asked Him for someone to love and someone who will love me. although, now i know, he doesn't feel the same way. it's actually ok and i'm taking it well. i'm thankful for having known him and having spent time with him. he is what you can call an inspiration. he inspires me to do best in what i do. he inspires me do things without regrets. he taught me to stand on my own and not to count on others to make me happy. with him, i can totally say that i have no regrets. i loved him in my own way without holding back anything. that is why, even though he doesn't feel the same way, i am happy.

in addition to that, i am happy because i now have a better connection with the people who maintains my sanity, my friends. i'm glad to be able to talk to them again about lots of things. i really miss them. people come and go but friends, true friends, they always stay. we seem to be so different now. i was afraid of it at first but i realized even though a lot of things have changed between us my love for them remains the same. i may not have made any interesting invention or made a significant contribution to the field of Statistics or made the whole country know my name but i made true friends. i could die happily with that.

this semester will perhaps be my last semester as an undergrad student of UP School of Statistics. i am excited and afraid at the same time. i am excited because i know there are lots of challenges waiting to be conquered and opportunities waiting to be seized. with that, i am afraid of not being able to conquer or to seize them all. this is my last chance to feel the University of the Philippines as a student. i won't let that chance slip by. so let's get it on!

it feels great.

i feel good.

i feel energized.

i feel you.

hello 2nd sem!

no regrets, just love

loving what you do +  loving the people you're working with +  loving the people you're working for = happiness

from now on, i will do everything so that i won't have any regrets. i've been afraid all my life. i think it's about time i give myself a chance. i'm going to smile at every opportunity and hold on tight to those that matter. i will love until it hurts and will hurt until another love. i will quit trying to figure people out. maybe the reason why you can't get them out of your head is that they are meant to stay there. i don't want to wallow in self-pity anymore. i want to bathe in self-love. i know changing is hard but it's harder if i won't even try. i know i've made and broken promises more that you can count with your two hands, but i want to make promises again. maybe, promising also needs practice. the good thing is i have all the time to practice!

**forgiveness is something that is given without any condition, without anything in return (that's why it's for-give).

mga kadramahan ng isang babaeng nadulas sa daan

i fell and i was hurt because nobody was there to catch me. i can only scream and by the time he came, there was nothing else he could do. i was already broken. it's funny how people ask "are you ok?" even when they know you're not. maybe, it is to give you that chance to deny your suffering, to deny your agony. so that if you can make others believe, maybe you can make yourself believe too.

falling and getting hurt is natural because there is such a thing as gravity. but gravity is not that strong to keep you down. we all have the strength to stand up. but, not all of us have the courage to do so because standing up means being vulnerable to falling again.

but standing up and falling, and standing up and falling again is better than not standing up at all. don't be afraid of the things that make you happy. they may hurt you at least you were happily hurt than regretfully hurt.

there may be no one there to catch you now but believe in the reality that soon someone will. so don't be afraid to fall. how can someone catch you if you are not falling?

i wanna be with you if only for tonight

i am tired from meeting the demands of my everyday life. i am tired from living up to expectations of those who matter. i am tired from trying everything and doing my best yet not being satisfied with the fruits of my labor. i am tired from working alone. i am tired of being alone. that is why tonight i wanna be with you. you need not hold me tight and tell me everything will be alright. you need not put your arms around me and tell me you still love me even though i can't do the program right. i just need to be next to you. i just need to be with you.

i want to be next to you where grades, impressions and deadlines amount to nothing. i wanna be with you because worries leave me when i am at your side. i wanna be with you because in your eyes i found the greatest escape. i wanna be with you because with you is where reality is better than any other dream.

i wanna be with you. With you nothing else matters because all that matters is you.

When you're angry

when you're angry,

• stop whatever you're doing. instead of accomplishing something, you'll end up accomplishing nothing
• don't suppress your anger. this is a band-aid solution. it might work at first but in the long run it will all explode leaving you more angry than ever.
• don't talk to the people who made you angry as much as possible. you might end up saying things you don't mean.
• listen to calming music (vitamin string quartet's music and classical music are very effective)
• talk to friends without telling them you're angry. friends have the tendency to make you happy even if you're not sad. they are natural and living anti-depressants
• exercise. a very healthy way of releasing your anger :)
• look at trees or beautiful sceneries. next to friends, these are natures anti-depressant
• PRAY! no one else can take away the anger in your heart other than the One who gave you your heart. surrender all your anger to Him and ask Him to replace it with His love. Great trade isn't it?

I will study because...

i will study because....

• i don't want to end up a beggar
• i want to learn more!
• conquering the academe is a challenge i just can't resist!
• i actually get paid to do it
• the taxes of the Filipino people pay for my education
• learning new things is as exciting as traveling to new places!
• people in the academe are smart and from that pool of smart people are smart guys (ok,this is not always true though)
• if you look very hard amidst those formulas and lengthy proofs are lessons in life :)
• i hate flunking
• there a more than a million children (essentially brighter than me) who can't go to school and the aren't-you-guilty plea works here
• being a student gives me access to the library, to all the books! yey!
• being a student entitles me with 20% discount on transport fare and meals
• i get to enjoy trips paid for by my mom :)
• i get to go to overnight out-of-town trips with permission and sometimes even persuasion from my mom!
• i want to make this world a better place :D
• i believe that coming into this world our minds are like blank pages of a notebook. We live through life writing about all the things we have learned. It would be very embarrassing to give back a blank notebook to God.
• though not all things are thought inside the classroom, most of them are.
• i don't want to disappoint my parents
• it seems such a natural thing to do! haha
• being in school is the fastest and most efficient way to meet and make new friends

there are actually a million reasons. i'll try to put them here (a million? WTF!) so if you're lazing around, not wanting to study perhaps you can read this list or you can make your own! :D it's a fun way to motivate yourself to study (well, it worked for me :)so it might as well work for you *wink)