Love And Hate Relationship

It was one of those mornings when it takes a lot of self control not to wring someone's neck. I wanted to fill this post with morning rants but I have a better plan.

Remember the saying "The world gives you what you give to the world?" I thought that if I write all about the things that happened this morning that I hate, the world will echo this hate to me. Well, I don't know about you but I don't want more hate in this world. I want love. I want more love.

So, instead of writing:
-I hate (negative thing no. 1)
I will write:
- I love (opposite of negative thing no.1)

Sounds easy right?

Here's my list:
-I love strangers who think of others when riding a jeepney. I love the way they sit properly so that you can be comfortable too.
-I love jeepney drivers who leave the terminal to let other drivers have their share of passengers.
-I love men who use their hands to help old ladies get on the jeepney and not pretend to accidentally touch ladies next to them.
-I love proper and orderly jeepney terminals.
-I love smokers who do not smoke while walking so the person walking behind him will not have smoke all over the face.
-I love a sincere "Good morning."
-I love arriving earlier than expected.

Whew! That felt a lot better. From now on, instead of ranting I will continue with this love and hate relationship.

Happy Friday!

Wordy Wednesday: Slow Motion Drowning

Water up to my throat
Threatening my quivering breaths
Climbing my skin in creepy slow motion
I'm drowning
I'm drowning in slow motion
My legs flail helplessly to gain ground
My arms scream loudly with no sound
My eyes have given up
Raining tears in a suicide attempt
And I ask myself:
Why did I drown myself in this ocean?
If I am the willing victim, who is this damsel whining?
Are the waves worth the cliff jump?
Are you still worth the drowning?
Are you still worth the slow motion drowning?

Labor Day Adventure Part 2: Panguil River Ecopark

After resting, we traveled to the Panguil River Ecopark. It was a thrilling ride. The road is like a 1 hour long roller coaster

And the sights varied from the lake,

rolling hills,

and rice fields.

It was already 5PM when we arrived at the Panguil River Ecopark. A sign outside says entrance fees are P60 for 6AM to 6PM and P80 for overnight. We waited for somebody to ask for our payment but no one approached us. Haha. So we just made our way inside. We were greeted by a hanging bridge.

Abs po yan. Abs with a T.... Tabs.

We went straight to the guide's table hoping to participate in the trek to Ambon-Ambon Falls but according to them, the last trip left at around 4:30 PM. We were 30 mins late. Aww. So instead, we looked for a spot by the river for a quick dip.

The river was cold and clear. It looks green from afar because of the moss that grew on the rocks.







On the part where we stayed, the water was only mid leg to waist deep. But, I think there are parts where the level reaches the chest to shoulder since some kids managed to dive in.



After about 15 minutes of swimming, we had to leave because it is still a 3-hour long drive to Mendez. We went to the shower rooms but as expected, it was jampacked. There are only 5 shower cubicles in the shower room we entered. We opted to change in one of the toilets instead. After freshening up and changing clothes, we headed home.



We parked by a mall and ate our dinner (Jollibee 1 pc Chicken with Spaghetti + the rice cooked by Dad + Sundae Mixins Cookie Berry) with bare hands. We had some sort of a picnic inside the car. It was so much fun.



I realize a lot of things after this impromptu trip.
1. Don't get disheartened when your plans don't materialize. Open your eyes. God must have a better plan.
2. Your friends will inevitably leave you. People will get mad at you for screwing up. But, your family will always accept you for who you are and will support your craziness (if you want it badly enough).
3. If you care for the people you are with, you will always have fun no matter where you go, no matter what you eat.
4. The world is full wonder. Explore! Curiosity may kill but ignorance is suicide.

Mga Pangarap ng Isang 21 year old na nilalang

Isang gabi matapos gumawa ng copy, napakarandom na naisip ko "Ano nga bang pangarap ko?" (Nagpapakaprofound ang lola mo). Naisip ko bigla. Ikaw, ikaw ang pangarap ko (SOOOOOOOOOOBRANGG CHEEEEEEEEESY) pero actually parang hindi naman. Parang iba ang pangarap ko.Ano nga ba, ano nga ba ang pangarap ko?


pangarap kong kantahin para sa akin ng isang espesyal na tao ang "I'm yours" ng The Script

pangarap kong magtayo ng bahay ampunan

pangarap kong makakuha ng 100 na score sa karaoke

pangarap kong sumayaw ng ballroom
( at habang sinusulat ko ito tumugtog ang "if can see it then i can do it if i just believe it there's nothing to it" i sooooo love you Lord. Ang lakas ng bilib mo sakin)

pangarap kong makasakay sa eroplano

pangarap kong magkaroon ng anak

pangarap kong maging isang mabuting ina

pangarap kong makapagbake ng chocolate cake na masarap

pangarap kong umakytat ng puno

pangarap kong maging dj

pangarap kong sumulat

pangarap kong mapunta sa langit

pangarap kong magsulat ng sarili kong libro

pangarap kong malagay sa dyaryo (for a very positive reason. let's stress that)

pangarap kong makatanggap sa roses

pangarap kong makapagdrive ng kotse

pangarap kong maging proud sila sa akin

pangarap kong mahanap ang "The One"

Pangarap kong makarating sa Great Barrier Reef

Pangarap kong malibot ang Rome

Pangarap kong gumawa ng bag

pangarap kong makawitness ng isang miracle

pangarap kong makapagligtas ng ibang tao

pangarap kong mawala ang lahat ng pimples ko

pangarap kong maging kulot

Pangarap kong maging isang cartoon

pangarap kong makaimbento ng sarili kong recipe na masarap

pangarap kong manalo ng award

pangarap kong mag-out-of -town with my friends

pangarap kong matutong maggitara

pangarap kong matupad ang mga pangarap ko

pangarap kong maging pangarap ng iba. haha

hello 2nd sem!

i cant sleep.

i'm afraid.

but i know fear is only in my head. should i get rid of my head? (that's a joke there.and it's not funny)

i have to adjust my body clock.

i have an 8:30 class. no to late night nothings (like this) anymore.

well, what am i thinking now?

i just read my whole blog again and it's weird reading it from latest to oldest.
but, i'm glad. i remember precisely how i felt while writing those and it makes me laugh.
yes, someday, there will come a point in your life when you will laugh about the things that once made you cry.

i am honestly satisfied with my life now. yes, single and happy and in love. with a very rich and colorful past to look back to, a very hopefully bright future ahead of me and a present full of surprises. yes, that is my life.

in terms of the heart matter, there are two people who colored (and are still coloring?) my life. the first one is the one i've always look up to. i wonder how he is now. part of my "success" in the academic field is because of him. For 2 years in a row, i motivated myself by thinking "he's doing great! you have to do so too.", "you don't want to face him a failure!", "he was able to do it, so why can't i?" then afterwards, it all boiled down to my innate desire to excel (although life will teach you in a hard way that you can't always do that). i am happy for him. i would love to see him fall in love with a deserving girl. i would love to shake his hand thinking "congrats, first love" because, yes, he is my first love. and it is true that first love never dies.

the other one is the person God pointed to when i asked Him for someone to love and someone who will love me. although, now i know, he doesn't feel the same way. it's actually ok and i'm taking it well. i'm thankful for having known him and having spent time with him. he is what you can call an inspiration. he inspires me to do best in what i do. he inspires me do things without regrets. he taught me to stand on my own and not to count on others to make me happy. with him, i can totally say that i have no regrets. i loved him in my own way without holding back anything. that is why, even though he doesn't feel the same way, i am happy.

in addition to that, i am happy because i now have a better connection with the people who maintains my sanity, my friends. i'm glad to be able to talk to them again about lots of things. i really miss them. people come and go but friends, true friends, they always stay. we seem to be so different now. i was afraid of it at first but i realized even though a lot of things have changed between us my love for them remains the same. i may not have made any interesting invention or made a significant contribution to the field of Statistics or made the whole country know my name but i made true friends. i could die happily with that.

this semester will perhaps be my last semester as an undergrad student of UP School of Statistics. i am excited and afraid at the same time. i am excited because i know there are lots of challenges waiting to be conquered and opportunities waiting to be seized. with that, i am afraid of not being able to conquer or to seize them all. this is my last chance to feel the University of the Philippines as a student. i won't let that chance slip by. so let's get it on!

it feels great.

i feel good.

i feel energized.

i feel you.

hello 2nd sem!

eureka moments in between my lecture notes

• Most of the great things we want in life are intimidating. That's what makes life so darn exciting!
• once in every little girl's life she fell in love with a bad boy
• may mga taong sadyang paasa
• we women love mystery. But if he's making you wonder how he feels for you, then dump him girl! If a man truly loves you, he'll make certain he makes himself clear
• hindi sa torpe siya. hindi sa ayaw niyang masira ang friendship niyo. hindi sa hindi pa ito ang tamang panahon. you're not together because he doesn't want you to be. face it. he doesn't love you enough for that.
• love until it hurts. at this point, there will be no more pain just love (mother teresa)
• i'm looking forward to falling in love with you again
• bakit ka naman maiinlove sa taong mataas pa ang pride sa sarili niya?
• it is not about knowing when to stop. it is about ensuring that when you finally stopped, there will be no more what-if's, no-but's, no what-might have-been's, only moving on
• walang tatalo sa bangis ng unang pag-ibig
• if it doesn't feel right then it is wrong but the converse is not true
• never settle for anything less. you're too much special for that
• do you love me or do you not? you told me once but i forgot, so tell me now and tell me true. so i can say i love you too!
• "i'm free" is not always the complement of "i'm taken." sometimes it is "i'm reserved"
• i feel you love me but the consequence of type I error is a hundredfold greater than that of type II error

Flavor of the Month

repost from tuwing naalala kong nagkagusto ako sa'yo natatawa lang ako:

""Being babaero doesn't make you GWAPO. It makes you GAGO."

wag kang masdayong sweet sa isang tao lalo na kung iba naman ang laman ng puso mo. wag mong samantalahin ang kahinaan ng isang tao kung alam mong ikaw ang kahinaan nya. at kapag wala ka namang balak mahalin wag mong landiin. ang babae hindi yan psp na kukunin mo..."

nakakatawa. naging flavor of the month lang ba ako?

ang sarap ko naman para akong ice cream.hahaha.

i don't care if you don't care because I care and that's what matters.

maybe i don't deserve you or maybe you don't deserve me.

i refuse to be hurt

ganyan ka nga talaga.

di ko masabing "so what?" pero di ko rin namang masabing "ay, turn off"

kebs lang.

rebound mo lang pala ako.pero bat ganun, hindi naman masakit?

siguro kasi this time around, ginawa ko lahat ng gusto kong gawin.

NO REGRETS.

so i'm happy :)

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Mga Facebook Status na hindi Maistatus

• I hate it when people assume that they know what i think or how i feel
• I know you know that I know and you know I know that you know.
• Learning from the past means not doing what you did wrong all over again.
• If you reached a dead end, there is no other way but to go back. But if going back hurts more, try breaking up the wall.
• Hindi ako manhid. Ayoko lang maging assuming.
• Everything in your life now is a consequence of your choices kaya wag kang umiyak. Ginusto mo yan.
• Most admiring trait of a man: when he knows how to listen

Narealize ko...

• napakaselosa ko...as in!...i compete for attention...tsk..isip-batang-myka...
• "minsan, parang ang layo-layo nyo na at kayo na lang ang nagkakaintindihan. Kailan nga ba tayo huling nag-usap ng walang tinatago sa isa't-isa?"

ok..enough drama...

• nakakatawa...may crush ako kamukha ng crush ko dati..na crush din ni neva dati...ahaha,,
• hindi ako ganun eh, anong magagawa ko..
• Hindi mo dapat baguhin ang sarili mo para sa isang tao unless mas mahalaga yung taong yun kaysa sa sarili mo...
• bakit nga ba nating gugustuhing ibalik ang dati kung masaya naman tayo sa mga nangyayari ngayon?
• pag mahal mo ang isang tao, kahit sinaktan ka niya noon,ngingiti ka pa rin ng kakaibang ngiti pag nakausap mo siya ulit at bibigyan mo na naman siya ng pagkakataong saktan ka.....
• ok lang masaktan, basta sumaya ka kahit papaano..loser mo naman kung lagi ka na lang nasasaktan.ano ka martir?
  
• pag humingi ka ng lakas kay Lord, hindi siya magpapadala ng angel para sapian ka at maging malakas ka, bibigyan ka niya ng sangkatutak na problema..hangga't ikaw sa sarili mo ay makadevelop ng lakas..God never spoon-feeds.He loves us too much to do that.
  
• tunay na kaibigan ang isang taong dadalhin ka sa police station pag sinabi mo sa kanyang nakapatay ka ng tao.
• kailangan nating mabigo para matuto pero kahit ganun, iwasan pa rin natin, as much as possible ang mga kabiguan...they break hearts..