maybe...

"i love him. i still love him"

you say it as though you want to convince yourself. i wasn't there to witness your love story perhaps i just read about it somewhere or you just narrated them to me so i may judge wrongly. i may not even have the right to judge in the first place. you may not even read this or even if you do you may not know i'm writing about you. but trust me i'm writing this because i am your friend and because i love you.

maybe you didn't love him that much. forgive this brutal honesty but the sooner you accept it, the sooner you set yourself and him free. when you love a person, you don't need to convince yourself that you do. And you won't stammer when you say "i love you too."  why waste your time on someone you're not sure if you truly love? or to put it bluntly, why waste your time on someone you don't love?

 i think love is something we have to be sure about because we deal with hearts here. something more fragile than sugar glass. something more breakable than a promise.  so be careful. handle yourself with care. and that comes with a please.

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

No matter how much I love you I will not tolerate being taken for granted. I won't waste my time and my voice on someone who doesn't even listen. I've given you my time and my best effort. It's time you deserve it. It's time you learn and earn respect. Applicants must learn how to apply. Appreciate it while it's still heaven because hell is just around the corner. Show me you are learning or at least willing to. DON'T MAKE ME TEACH YOU. You'll regret it. I'd rather not have any new members this sem than have 30 people I cannot be proud of. I can't believe I'm saying this. It might hurt you but think of how much it hurts me. Being angry with you and being disappointed with myself at the same time.Don't push me to my limits because at that point I push back. hard.

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"Tayo na!"
"Tayo na?"
"Oo, unless gusto mo pang maghintay?"
"Joke lang yun! Oh my God! I can't believe tayo na!"

Yan ang storya kung paano naging kami ni Oliver. Actually, niyaya ko lang siyang umalis na kasi ang tagal dumating nung gustong bumili ng tickets para sa play. Nagulat na lang ako kasi niyakap niya ako at in 5 seconds, may boyfriend na ako.

Ilang buwan na ring nanliligaw sa akin si Oliver. Pero hindi ko siya sinasagot. Hindi dahil sa ayaw ko sa kanya kundi dahil hindi ko lang siya ganun ka-gusto para i-commit ang sarili ko. Kung ganon, bakit hindi ko itinama yung maling akala niya? Well, let's just say I want to give it a try. Paano ko malalaman kung hindi ko susubukan? Paano ko malalaman kung masarap kung hindi ko titikman?

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Proud StatSocer

ang saya-saya ko. perhaps, throughout my entire lifetime, this is the day when i said the most number of  i love you's. i never say it unless i mean it. but today in StatSoc's bonding activity, it just flowed out of me. The activity wasn't anywhere near perfect. magulo. maingay. but it's the people, the StatSocers who made it a success. akala ko hindi ako iiyak kasi sobrang masaya ako. but i was wrong. i realized that the more i am happy the more i shed tears. i share my smile with only the most special people but i share my tears with only the most special of those special people. it feels so good to not hold back anything. it feels so good to be totally honest with the people that matter so much, with the people closest to my heart. i realized that i love who i've become because maybe if i hadn't been me, i wouldn't meet these wonderful people or maybe it's the other way around, because i met these wonderful people, i have become who i am and i am not ashamed of that.

nalulungkot ako para sa mga taong hindi naging StatSoc, mga taong hindi nararamdaman ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. we're not a perfect organization because we're not just an organization, we're a family. sa mga taong ayaw magStatSoc, kebs ko sa inyong lahat. You may be happy now but you're missing the chance to be happier. and that is not an overstatement.

sana maging mas masaya pa ang StatSoc! Stat WHAT???????