mga kadramahan ng isang babaeng nadulas sa daan

i fell and i was hurt because nobody was there to catch me. i can only scream and by the time he came, there was nothing else he could do. i was already broken. it's funny how people ask "are you ok?" even when they know you're not. maybe, it is to give you that chance to deny your suffering, to deny your agony. so that if you can make others believe, maybe you can make yourself believe too.

falling and getting hurt is natural because there is such a thing as gravity. but gravity is not that strong to keep you down. we all have the strength to stand up. but, not all of us have the courage to do so because standing up means being vulnerable to falling again.

but standing up and falling, and standing up and falling again is better than not standing up at all. don't be afraid of the things that make you happy. they may hurt you at least you were happily hurt than regretfully hurt.

there may be no one there to catch you now but believe in the reality that soon someone will. so don't be afraid to fall. how can someone catch you if you are not falling?

random thoughts

• ang dami ko pang dapat gawin kaya wala akong oras na umiyak at kaawaan ang sarili ko.
• walang dapat pagsisihan sa pagmamahal sa isang tao
• we are all worthy to be loved. God proved us that.
• sana pwedeng i CTRL-F CTRL-X at CTRL-V ang mga tao
• sana maging ok na yung "ikaw" at maging ok na rin yung "ako" para maging ok naman yung "tayo"
• ang saya pala ng yung dating inaasar mo sa kaibigan mo, inaasar na niya ngayon sayo
• i don't know how to fix your broken heart but believe in me when i promise you i won't break it any further
• you taught me everything from falling in love to letting go to falling in love again
• lahat ng lihim ay binunyag, nabunyag, binubunyag o mabubunyag
• maybe the reason why people are fond of wearing earphones in public places is that hearing people inside your ears make you feel less alone.

i think i'm back in that roller coaster ride again

it's back. the feeling i thought i would never feel again. the feeling i thought was long gone. i think i'm back to that roller coaster ride again. i am so excited to see you again, this time, not a simple classmate or friend but as the person to whom i nurture a secret love. now, i am starting to smile that smile only you can put in my face. i am very tired from my every day tasks but i am never tired of smiling because of you. thank you for making me happy by your mere presence. and even though you don't know it yet, you've been a very big help to me this semester :)

i'm back in that roller coaster ride again. though you're still not here with me, i am happy because i know someday somehow, you will be <3

i wanna be with you if only for tonight

i am tired from meeting the demands of my everyday life. i am tired from living up to expectations of those who matter. i am tired from trying everything and doing my best yet not being satisfied with the fruits of my labor. i am tired from working alone. i am tired of being alone. that is why tonight i wanna be with you. you need not hold me tight and tell me everything will be alright. you need not put your arms around me and tell me you still love me even though i can't do the program right. i just need to be next to you. i just need to be with you.

i want to be next to you where grades, impressions and deadlines amount to nothing. i wanna be with you because worries leave me when i am at your side. i wanna be with you because in your eyes i found the greatest escape. i wanna be with you because with you is where reality is better than any other dream.

i wanna be with you. With you nothing else matters because all that matters is you.