All i want for Christmas is....

ok eto na. since masaya, gagawa ako ng christmas wish list ko:

1. reunion with highschool friends :)
2. lovelife (charing!)
3. Book on the fail safe ways to avoid or remedy a literally bad hair day
4. funky laptop sleeve
5. 40 new members of StatSoc next sem hahaha
6. unlimited call and text for a month
7. flash drive or external HDD
8. love letters from the people i love the most
9. taong pwedeng maging planner ng buhay ko
10. new phone hihihi
11. all day bonding with my sexy friends
12. a nice notebook that i can convert into my thoughts book :)
13. ballpen na hindi nawawala
14. new body clock haha yung hindi sira
15. watch
16. a song made for me :")
17. friends ko as screenmates. haha
18. matuto maggitara ulit
19. latin words beneath my name on my diploma
20. book on the fail safe ways on how to be a kinder, more cheerful and loving person. haha. i know i need it haha
21. pictures of me and my friends in awesome pretty picture frames
22. more blog visitors! yihee
23. a new and better boarding house
24. a world more honest
25. stressball hahaha

migraine

i promised myself to stop figuring you out. but here i am. everytime i sit down with myself, i think about you. not about my endless list of things to do, not about my overstretched budget, not about world peace or child abuse. No. i think about you. i once said that figuring you out is the worst way to waste my time. too bad i got used to not listening to myself. so here i am. sitting in a flattened carton box at 12:52 AM thinking about you, thinking about who i am to you, thinking about where i stand in your life. is it a sin for a woman to want security and assurance? No. of course not. but refusing to accept the truth that's been slapped to your face is. i can't stop wanting you. i can't stop imagining you and me and us. i can't stop imagining the fun we could have if we're together. i can't stop rehearsing words i want to tell you when time and opportunity permits. i've been here before. and i've been hurt. why do i not learn from my mistakes? maybe because, until now, i don't want to accept that it was just a mistake. how can a mistake feel that good?

but please don't get me wrong. i am not madly in love. i am just.....madly into love. maybe it's because of the season.or maybe it is you or is it just me? haha.