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"Tayo na!"
"Tayo na?"
"Oo, unless gusto mo pang maghintay?"
"Joke lang yun! Oh my God! I can't believe tayo na!"

Yan ang storya kung paano naging kami ni Oliver. Actually, niyaya ko lang siyang umalis na kasi ang tagal dumating nung gustong bumili ng tickets para sa play. Nagulat na lang ako kasi niyakap niya ako at in 5 seconds, may boyfriend na ako.

Ilang buwan na ring nanliligaw sa akin si Oliver. Pero hindi ko siya sinasagot. Hindi dahil sa ayaw ko sa kanya kundi dahil hindi ko lang siya ganun ka-gusto para i-commit ang sarili ko. Kung ganon, bakit hindi ko itinama yung maling akala niya? Well, let's just say I want to give it a try. Paano ko malalaman kung hindi ko susubukan? Paano ko malalaman kung masarap kung hindi ko titikman?

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Proud StatSocer

ang saya-saya ko. perhaps, throughout my entire lifetime, this is the day when i said the most number of  i love you's. i never say it unless i mean it. but today in StatSoc's bonding activity, it just flowed out of me. The activity wasn't anywhere near perfect. magulo. maingay. but it's the people, the StatSocers who made it a success. akala ko hindi ako iiyak kasi sobrang masaya ako. but i was wrong. i realized that the more i am happy the more i shed tears. i share my smile with only the most special people but i share my tears with only the most special of those special people. it feels so good to not hold back anything. it feels so good to be totally honest with the people that matter so much, with the people closest to my heart. i realized that i love who i've become because maybe if i hadn't been me, i wouldn't meet these wonderful people or maybe it's the other way around, because i met these wonderful people, i have become who i am and i am not ashamed of that.

nalulungkot ako para sa mga taong hindi naging StatSoc, mga taong hindi nararamdaman ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. we're not a perfect organization because we're not just an organization, we're a family. sa mga taong ayaw magStatSoc, kebs ko sa inyong lahat. You may be happy now but you're missing the chance to be happier. and that is not an overstatement.

sana maging mas masaya pa ang StatSoc! Stat WHAT???????

Synonyms

Endless talks and conversations

Countless LOL’s and emoticons

Till the sun shines, smiles and welcomes

Till the clock starts throwing tantrums

The “online friendship” I call it

Synonym to bond closely knit

online friendships, too few are gold

Ours is here until we get old

Thoughts shared about boys, dudes and guys

About white and red colored lies

When my day smiles, laughs and giggles

Or when it cries, begs and cripples

“I know I can sure count on you”

Synonym to seeing me through

Twists and turns, step downs and step ups

You are my most gorgeous back-up

Advices, two cents’ worth’s, sermons

Given freshly squeezed like lemons

My birthyear though less than yours

I bow to you, students to mentors

Words to the wise sprayed by your lips

Is sunshine to my petal tips

Synonymous to buoyant love

Sisters at heart made from above

Here we are at the starting line

Far from the goal, but we’ll be fine

We are pencils to be sharpened

Chain links to be tested, strengthened

Friends till we are two hundred two

Or until the dogs start to moo

I am synonymous to you

You are synonymous to “ a friend that is true”

**** For  Gelli's 18 memories. First poem in a very long time.

officially missing you...

You were not here today. Just like the other day and the day before that. Where are you? Why the sudden disappearance? Is something wrong? I can't help but ask questions. Will they ever be answered? (UGH! Even that is a question!) Because you are not here to answer them and in my normal sober mode, I cannot have the courage to ask. I feel sad. Absence doesn't always make the heart grow fonder. Sometimes, it makes the heart grow tired. And now I must say I am tired. I am tired of asking questions. I am tired of figuring you out. I am tired of waiting.

I feel like I lost an old friend. I miss you not anymore as my object of affection but as  one of my most valued friends.  I just want my friend back. I won't be here any longer. You can count with the fingers of one hand the number of months until I'm gone. I just want to spend that remaining time having fun with my friends. But it seems wanting something more than friendship has driven you away from me. So, if you don't want to be my object of affection then so be it. Maybe we're better off as friends. Yeah, just friends. 

TSK!

ano bang problema? para naman akong bola sa dodgeball, iniiwasan. kung may problema ka sakin, sabihin mo. wag mo akong pahirapan ng ganito. kung gusto mo akong kalimutan, sabihin mo lang para matulungan kita.

This 2011, I want to:

1. be a more active and versatile blogger (cross fingers for poetry and short stories)
2. plan with the planner (mahal yan, abusuhin mo)
3. be less vocal about my (romantic) feelings (i was very vocal about it and it didn't work out. haha. kunwari, i learned a lesson)
4. learn how to play an instrument 
5. be in love :)
6. be kinder (di ko namamalayan, maldita na ako. and that's not good haha)
7. be a financially stable person (i'd be joining the workforce soon so overstretching the budget and asking mom for help won't do anymore)
8. REALLY learn how to swim (para hindi laging hanggang 5 feet lang ung kaya kong languyin)
9. start a collection (well i don't know what yet but it will come)
10. buy christmas gifts for everyone with my own earned money (honestly, one of my motivations for studying.haha)
11. laugh everyday (hindi naman lumilipas ang isang araw na di ako tumatawa (unless tulog ako) pero ang sarap lang iimpose sa sarili haha)
12. forgive like i have amnesia (i hope i don't make enemies this year.maybe it's impossible but i am willing to try)
13. be more adventurously daring (jump without thinking and just cry if it hurts haha)
14. make a new friend (naloka ako sa 'make' pero ang ibig ko lang sabihin ay makipagkaibigan sa isang total stranger. yung hindi inintroduce or katrabaho or kaklase. mga tipong nakasabay ko lang sa mrt haha)
15. write a love letter and send it ( so kelangan magawa ko muna yung #5 haha)
16. spend a whole day in a library (time to give in to my second nature: reading)
17. list 20 books i want to read and read them
18. research and learn 100 new trivias
19. learn and use 100 new English words
20. spend a whole day wearing high heels (i have to learn how to haha)
21. anime series marathon for a day
22. learn how to sing at least 1 song (ng maayos yung mga tipong makaka99 sa videoke.haha. my frustration)
23. makumpleto ang simbang gabi (this year, i have to! I HAVE TO!)
24. start an autobiography (hindi pa naman ako mamatay. kaya nga start lang eh)
25. find a new hobby (reading, writing, sleeping and eating are all cliche hobbies. i want a new one!